A pastor's wife's shattering yet ultimately hopeful story of her husband's death by suicide, her journey to understand mental illness, and the light she found in the darkness. On August 25, 2018, Kayla Stoecklein lost her husband, Andrew--megachurch pastor of Inland Hills Church in Chino, California--to suicide. In the wake of the tragedy, she embarked on a brave journey to better understand his harrowing battle with mental illness and, ultimately, to overcome the stigma of suicide. Fear Gone Wild is her intimate account of all that led to that tragic day, including her husband's panic attacks and debilitating bouts of anxiety and depression. Despite their deep faith in God and the countless prayers of many believers, Andrew was never healed of his illness. Turning to Scripture for answers, she discovered that God uses wilderness experiences to prepare His children--including Jesus--for his greater purpose and to work miracles inside our souls. With a clear-eyed acknowledgment of how misguided and misinformed she was about mental illness, Kayla Stoecklein shares her story in hopes that anyone walking through the wilderness of mental illness will be better equipped for the journey and will learn to put their hope in Jesus through it all.

A pastor's wife's shattering yet ultimately hopeful story of her husband's death by suicide, her journey to understand mental illness, and the light she found in the darkness. On August 25, 2018, Kayla Stoecklein lost her husband, Andrew--megachurch pastor of Inland Hills Church in Chino, California--to suicide. In the wake of the tragedy, she embarked on a brave journey to better understand his harrowing battle with mental illness and, ultimately, to overcome the stigma of suicide. Fear Gone Wild is her intimate account of all that led to that tragic day, including her husband's panic attacks and debilitating bouts of anxiety and depression. Despite their deep faith in God and the countless prayers of many believers, Andrew was never healed of his illness. Turning to Scripture for answers, she discovered that God uses wilderness experiences to prepare His children--including Jesus--for his greater purpose and to work miracles inside our souls. With a clear-eyed acknowledgment of how misguided and misinformed she was about mental illness, Kayla Stoecklein shares her story in hopes that anyone walking through the wilderness of mental illness will be better equipped for the journey and will learn to put their hope in Jesus through it all.

"A pastor's wife, who lost her husband to suicide, paints an intimate portrait of what led to that day, her journey to understand mental illness, and how she put her hope in Jesus to find the light in the darkness"--

Searching for something more? Tired of feeling trapped? Want to live life on your terms with limitless potential and possibilities? You are not alone. This book is filled with women who have went from invisible to invincible. These leaders, guides, coaches and shamans have freed themselves from the ordinary and chosen the extraordinary. You can learn from their advice and be moved by their stories. In this book you will discover the… 1. Mindset of the Motivated 2. Attributes of the Affluent 3. Heart of the Heroine 4. Characteristics of the Successful 5. Power of Impatience If you want to apologize less and live more, it’s time to join these women in the sun as free spirits running wild in the world. Maybe it’s time to reconsider relocating to a better place to live, reassessing how you make your money, recharging your soul and recommitting to the life you only dare dream of in the past. The women speakers, authors and experts have done it and they want to show you how to do it as well! Welcome to Women Gone Wild. You’re invited to join them! Co-Authors: • Hanalei Swan • Alexa West • Jodi Vetterl • Ondi Laure • Yamilca Rodriguez • Isabel Donadio • Kathi Tait • Leah Steele • Sandra O'Brien • Kathy Gibson • Allison Lewis • Lilith Moon • Celinne Da Costa • Kendra Davies • Bella Maree Lane • Doria Cordova • Loretta Wetzel • Katrina Sawa • Camille Robb • Allison Larsen • Annieca Acker

Speaker and author Kayla Stoecklein delivers an inspiring message of how she came face-to-face with crushing personal loss and discovered how to rebuild a beautiful life. Fall in Love with Life Again In the midst of hardship and loss, what you long for most is hope—hope for a way forward, hope that purpose can come from this difficult season, hope that God is still with you. Since losing her pastor-husband to suicide in August 2018, Kayla Stoecklein has been passionate about bringing hope to those who wonder if life will ever hold beauty again. In Rebuilding Beautiful, Kayla shares the hard-won truths she has embraced in these years of grief and new beginnings to help you: discover practical and spiritual ways to welcome your pain so that you can ultimately surrender it. step into community in order to be held as well as hold space for the pain of others. understand the ways your body remembers trauma and find avenues for physical and mental healing. awaken to the splendor of a life in which sadness and joy coexist, and dare to dream again—spiritually, relationally, vocationally—as you discover more of who God made you to be in Christ. The journey from agony to awe takes time. Kayla’s words, ideas, and inspiration offer the road map and companionship you need to move forward even when you feel stuck—to wake up excited about a life that holds a new kind of beautiful.

Down the Wild Cape Fear: A River Journey through the Heart of North Carolina

A revolutionary guide to acknowledging fear and developing the tools we need to build a healthy relationship with this confusing emotion—and use it as a positive force in our lives. We all feel fear. Yet we are often taught to ignore it, overcome it, push past it. But to what benefit? This is the essential question that guides Kristen Ulmer’s remarkable exploration of our most misunderstood emotion in The Art of Fear. Once recognized as the best extreme skier in the world (an honor she held for twelve years), Ulmer knows fear well. In this conversation-changing book, she argues that fear is not here to cause us problems—and that in fact, the only true issue we face with fear is our misguided reaction to it (not the fear itself). Rebuilding our experience with fear from the ground up, Ulmer starts by exploring why we’ve come to view it as a negative. From here, she unpacks fear and shows it to be just one of 10,000 voices that make up our reality, here to help us come alive alongside joy, love, and gratitude. Introducing a mindfulness tool called “Shift,” Ulmer teaches readers how to experience fear in a simpler, more authentic way, transforming our relationship with this emotion from that of a draining battle into one that’s in line with our true nature. Influenced by Ulmer’s own complicated relationship with fear and her over 15 years as a mindset facilitator, The Art of Fear will reconstruct the way we react to and experience fear—empowering us to easily and permanently address the underlying cause of our fear-based problems, and setting us on course to live a happier, more expansive future.